DUDE . . .

2dae, kicked in fullshift at werk to cover 4 my bro. Been sleepin onli 4 hr plus everyday dis week n rite now im running on fumes. My back is achin, legs r weak, eyes r heavy, head spining n my hand is trembling. Dats how tired i am. Aniwae,
afta werk head down 2 esp n met up with e gang(mls nk tulis name). lpk jap den went home wif them. Dtas all. Im too tired to typet e details. n now . . .


EVERYONE HAS A STORY. BEHIND THE SMILES N LAUGHTERS LIES DEEP SADNESS, PAIN N ANGER. ALLOW ME TO UNVAIL 1/4 OF MINE FOR MY DEAR READERS. IM NOT EXPECTING PITINESS OR CHEER UP COMMENTS. JUZ READ ON, MY THOUGHTS THAT IM HAVIN NOWDAES. THAT WILL GIV U E ROUGH IDEA OF WAT IM FEELIN RITE NOW.

- mom cryin bcoz of my actions
- dad thinks im a born loser with no future
- mom n dad pourin money into me hopin dat i'll change
- always standing alone n goin against everybody in everything i do
- never failing to dissapoint e ppl arnd me
- always makin e wrong decisions
- been a long time since i prayed
- friends
- need 2 pass tp
- slow movin bike fund
- JBS
- FISAF
- ns
- werk
- expenses
- when's gonna b e end of ciggs,
- death

n most importantly
- wad m i gona b like in 5-10 yrs time.

Above r 1/4 of e tings im tinkin rite now, e rest im nt able mention here. Tings wudnt b lik dis if my bro didnt do e stuff dat he did quite a few yrs back, mom n dad havin a positive mindset n me havin e FUCKIN ability 2 make e correct decisions.

To u guys it mayb nutin, but to me, im tinkin bout it every min of e dae n its tearin me apart nowdaes. I hav been buildin a wall of anger brick by brick for e past few months n now, im juz waitin 4 it 2 collapse on sumtin or sum1.

Gues dats enuf of gooey feelin2 shit 4 dis post. will be updatin again soon. TC

P.S Im tellin myself alot of lies hopin that 1 day i will start belivin in those very lies.

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