D U D E . . .

Today, i ws awaken by a very wierd yet funny dream. It felt so real that i thought it was not a dream. It was a short dream coz i slept late last nite watchin 'Klakar rabak'. 5 hours of sleep and this is what my mind conjured up.

I was confronted by a bunch of gangsters on my way back home from donnoe where, all of them are from different races. Surrounding me in all directions, they started to ask me questions and also trying to pick a fight at the same time. All of a sudden i was hit from e back and fell to the floor, eating kicks n punches cominG in all directions. After the beating all of them moved back and i see my younger brother among them. I stood up and said, 'Oi! pe ko buat kat sini?'. And he replied, 'Aku nga jual rokok la, 5 dollar je. Kau nk beli tk?'. And den i woke up. I was so engrossed in the dream coz it felt so real until i went up to my brother( who is in my room at that time) as soon as i opened my eyes and scolded him.

Me: Kau aper ni buat keje bodo gi jual2 rokok.
Bro: Aper kau? Bile aku jual rokok??
Me: Tadi tu aper.
Bro: Bile? Kau da gile pe?? Kau nga mimpi agaknye bodo!

Den i realised it and laughed. Took my bath towel n went to shower, walking with a smile on my face the whole time. ahahha.
Stupid fucked up dream that put a smile on my face the today everytime i think about it. ahhaha.

Dats all for my post.Well actually, a few other things hpned worth mentioning today but i'll juz save it for my next post. TC VATOS

P.S. Im having a good mood today coz finally, a few good news came to my ears in a long long time.

- 1:35 AM -

D U D E . . .

i donoe wat 2 update but i hav 2 coz ader org da tegor. E same person hu always gets me 2 update. ahahha. u noe who u are eh. Aniwaes . . .

Let me start with wad hpn 2dae. woke 10.30 coz need 2 paint house. In otherwords, CAT RUMAH. ahahah. Had my breakfst den start paintin. den lunch break n den more paintin. By e time i finished which is arnd 6 plus, my hands were heavy n im fuckin hungry. so mkn again den chill, maen guitar tgk tv.

Thought dat i cud finally rest sekali ader 'nyonya' kol aku sia. Tnye aku kat mane, tron jurong ke tk. ahahha. bingit siak aku ngn tu nyonya, kacau aku nye restin tym. ahah.

Mandi den siap2 nk gi jumpe tu nyonya ngn member dier apek2 sume. ahahah. Abg aku tk caye yg aku nk gi lpkk ngn nyonya n apek2 so dier ikot nk tgk. ahahha. smpi jurong lmbt den kene mara ngn nyonya n apek2. Abg aku da dpt tgk nyonya2 n apek2 TU so kite ramai2 gi maen pool. Until arnd 10 plus, den lpk outside entertainment mkn jap n F O G G I N. ahahha. Den balek. THE END.

NYONYA : SHASHA
APEK2 : SHAZ, AREP, FAZ

P.S. Look through my eyes and you can see that im no longer hollow. Coz there's you kept inside of me.

- 12:38 AM -

DUDE . . .

U guys wud hav known by now dat i failed my TP. So yea . . .shit hpns n i skidded n fell when i ws juz 20 secs away frm finishin e test. Haiz dot dot dot
Nex TP slot is at e end of june, another long long wait. FUCKED.

Aniwae, yest ws GRADUATION DAY. It ws fun but sum faces didnt turn up so dat kind of pulled tings down a lil bit. Met Shaz n arep n poly den off 2 skool together. Den wen i reach skool, familiar faces start popin, it ws nice. Thnks wani 4 helpin me wif e tie. ahahah. I 4got how 2 tie a tie. My outfit 4 e dae ws supposed 2 b different but dat grey pants screw up e whole ting. But its still good. Las min changes made a MAFIA out of me. Wats missin is juz a hat n it wud hav been perfecto. Damn! Ahahah.

Here r sum V I S U A L A I D S on dat dae. stole frm shaz blog, hu stole frm qiks blog. ahaha





Im nt myslef in both e pics coz behind e photographer were a grup of gals lookin at us. so i cant act as myself. aahahah. nanti paise.

Afta dat lpk at cafe 1 4 ONE LAST TIME. Den went to tamp mac. My sore throat flu n cough juz got worst so i have 2 ditch my plans 4 e dae n went home. SORI EINN coz i ws not there. Happy Bdae!

12 hrs of sleep still didnt cure my sickness but i still hav 2 get my ass up 4 werk. Everi1 at werk were feelin sori 4 me n ask me to go home. But aku ni suke step 'hero' ahaha. Tkla2 . . .if i go home they will hav trouble. AFta werk went home w/o any detours n S L E E P! s

Den shaz called todae at 9.30 ajak lpk jurong with shahsa n sk8. Played pool 4 a while. Shasha asyik dtg jurong je mcm hyper . . .even wen she's not takin her 'drugs'. ahaha. Da gile agaknye. Shaz, i ws e better player but ko always attain e cheap wins. CHEAP! ahaha jok2. Den go home arnd 11.30. Still sick rite now . . .

Tmr . . .so far no plans yet. so it shud b a veri simple pimple dae tmr . . .
TC peeps, c ya arnd aite.

P.S. Miss. Missing. Im missing. Im missing HER.

- 12:56 AM -

DUDE . . .

2dae, kicked in fullshift at werk to cover 4 my bro. Been sleepin onli 4 hr plus everyday dis week n rite now im running on fumes. My back is achin, legs r weak, eyes r heavy, head spining n my hand is trembling. Dats how tired i am. Aniwae,
afta werk head down 2 esp n met up with e gang(mls nk tulis name). lpk jap den went home wif them. Dtas all. Im too tired to typet e details. n now . . .


EVERYONE HAS A STORY. BEHIND THE SMILES N LAUGHTERS LIES DEEP SADNESS, PAIN N ANGER. ALLOW ME TO UNVAIL 1/4 OF MINE FOR MY DEAR READERS. IM NOT EXPECTING PITINESS OR CHEER UP COMMENTS. JUZ READ ON, MY THOUGHTS THAT IM HAVIN NOWDAES. THAT WILL GIV U E ROUGH IDEA OF WAT IM FEELIN RITE NOW.

- mom cryin bcoz of my actions
- dad thinks im a born loser with no future
- mom n dad pourin money into me hopin dat i'll change
- always standing alone n goin against everybody in everything i do
- never failing to dissapoint e ppl arnd me
- always makin e wrong decisions
- been a long time since i prayed
- friends
- need 2 pass tp
- slow movin bike fund
- JBS
- FISAF
- ns
- werk
- expenses
- when's gonna b e end of ciggs,
- death

n most importantly
- wad m i gona b like in 5-10 yrs time.

Above r 1/4 of e tings im tinkin rite now, e rest im nt able mention here. Tings wudnt b lik dis if my bro didnt do e stuff dat he did quite a few yrs back, mom n dad havin a positive mindset n me havin e FUCKIN ability 2 make e correct decisions.

To u guys it mayb nutin, but to me, im tinkin bout it every min of e dae n its tearin me apart nowdaes. I hav been buildin a wall of anger brick by brick for e past few months n now, im juz waitin 4 it 2 collapse on sumtin or sum1.

Gues dats enuf of gooey feelin2 shit 4 dis post. will be updatin again soon. TC

P.S Im tellin myself alot of lies hopin that 1 day i will start belivin in those very lies.

- 2:02 AM -

DUDE . . .

Sori 4 nt updating 4 quite a while. Its either busy or tired. Dis gonna b a short post coz im goin werk lata. so here goes . . .

Las few daes hav been fun, hanging out wif my frens n stuff. but e grup is breaking up juz as i predicted. Coz 'fun' don last veri long. ahaha.

Aniwaes, i cant remember wad i hav been doin since i last updated but i can onli remember e last 2 daes. When to watch Harold n Kumar with shasha n shaz on mondae. we met up at 6 plus den went to cathay, met shaz there. Klaka sia e movie. IDK which 1 is better, e ferst 1 or second 1 ws better. Both made me laugh lyk fuck n both gt nude scenes. O_O AHAHAHAH! HAIZ DOT DOT DOT
Afta e movie went home coz e nex dae keje pagi. Aniwae shasha, e escalator joke, bastard sia. . . kurang ajar. rabak sia, it hurt me deeply sia. ahahah. YA RITE!

Den yest woke up late 4 werk. . . WAIT!

FUCK! IM LATE 4 WERK RITE NOW. AHAH. CONTINUE SOON. TC

PS: IM LATE! IM LATE!

- 12:30 PM -